I did want to come on here and tell you some about the last 24 hrs we had our moose but honestly it was pretty raw. So I thought waiting some would help.
It has… sorta.
The last 24 hrs was hard. But kinda cool in the same breathe.
The drive to her new home was long. She will live each 3 and a half hours away. The girls watched 3 movies on the way down. ithe as snow/ raining when we left and by the time we got there the sun had come out.
We checked into the hotel and then too off to her new home.
It was really cool for me to see where she will be and to see her new room. She will have a puppy to play with which she will love.
We spent a couple hours there and then we went and grabbed supper and back to the hotel. I made sure it was pretty chill and I let them go up and down the hallways and watch cartoons.
Our middle one was having a really hard time so some heart to hearts. The girls hearts are hurting and some memories are coming to surface.
The next morning I was up by 5: 30. Hard morning. Cartoons and baths and then off to breakfast. Then packed up and back to her new home. 45 minutes later I had to pry a screaming crying little one out of my arms and hand her over as I dashed out the door.
Even as I sit here and write this the pain is still so hard. Like a kick to the gut.
But let’s face it, I still am momma to two other little girls needing me. I’ve never been so thankful for DVD players.
The we headed back home after a side stop of some shopping hoping it would distract. I should have known better but it was worth a try.
The evening home went ok. Tired girls. Emotionally spent. Bed early. Then momma walked around in her numbness.
I made the mistake of going into her room last night.
Have I mentioned yet how quiet it is?
Today I spent cleaning because that I can control. I aalso did little things like put the phones back down, the toilet paper back on the rolls, the bathroom door gets to be left open. I kinda Unkid proofed.
Im trying hard to focus on the good.
She does have a really nice new family. I know she is already loved by them. She will get some much desired one on one time with mommy while her older sibling is in school. She will be cuddled and smooched. Her new mommy is ensuring me we will still be able to be a part of her life.
I’m also overwhelmed by the amount of love and support we have received in this. The amount of people praying for us alone is amazing. I can also say without a word of doubt that I have definitely felt Him these past few days.
Now to start the hard process of learning to live without our moose.
In the words of her new mommy… One day at a time.