Today our little monkey turned 3.
We spent it looking at other monkeys at the zoo.
This was a fun one as she is still young enough there is no need for a big hype, yet old enough to start understanding it was her birthday.
“Grace” is growing like a weed, and often out eats her older sister.
Her words are finally coming clearer and sentences are really forming.
She is still very timid and not fond of trying new things but is fierce enough to stand up to you when she is pushed in a corner.
She’s a fantastic sharer and loves very much on her little sister who just turned one.
She is still unsteady on her feet so the end of the month will bring an eye appt.
She loves most all foods except for cottage cheese and beans.
She loves her big sister very much and often is found by her side trying to do everything she does. However she plays out much faster and still needs that afternoon nap.
She hates not being able to get something on the first try and will often burst into tears because of it.
For her birthday I spent 3 days sewing diapers, baby bed, two little doll blankets, pillow, wipes, carrier, and diaper bag. I can see many many hours of use out of them.
As much as we love having her and spending each birthday from now on and getting all her snuggles, giggles and love, I’ve spend yesterday and today consumed with thoughts of her birth mom.
I’m torn between being so sad of her and Grace’s loss to loving the fact that we are now able to have this precious bean in our lives.
I can’t imagine her thoughts today. How these days must pass in her life. How I have no doubt that she is yearning for her monkey and wondering all about her. What she is like. Who she looks like.
However I will be forever grateful for two things. One she choose to carry to full term this precious miracle. She choose life. And two that through all they have been through I’m the one lucky enough to be called her momma.
Our Grace will forever have two moms. She will always and forever know she was deeply loved by both of us. She will always and forever know of the love and sacrifice her tummy mummy made so we could be a family together.